orientasi + frenz + lost ♥

Hatiku masih, seperti dulu…~ ^^

Hahaha merepek je aku ni. Hari ni tetibe je rasa nak tulis blog. Rasenye sgt byk nk tulis ni. Lame tak singgah sini… rindu sangat.

1st July aritu aku masuk nursing college kt Melaka… agak seronok tapi agak scary coz da lame tak duduk dengan senior… camne ye perasaan duduk dgn senior blk?? Hmm… after daftar, g masuk bilik, dapat 1 bilik dengan kak ain.. akak tu budak sem 5… ok r.. boleh msuk kepala aku… tak sangka yang dia ni org Johor jugak… org Tmn U.. nampaknya ada can la aku balik dengan dia raya ni… masa minggu orientasi tu agak sakit hati coz mmg kena dengan senior habis-habisan… tapi sangat seronok… dekat sini male nursing ada 2 org… senior Rizal [ sem 5 ] n senior Sharil [sem 4 ]… masa minggu orientasi ada kembara [ ala-ala treasure hunt ] seronok tak terkata…memang tension la sampai ada budak yang menangis. Ingat lagi masa kena conteng muka kawan sendiri dengan tanah yang dicampur air.. hahaha ala-ala mask gitu…hahaha at last kteorg sume dpt mkn cekodok bawang yang kami buat sendiri dan masak dengan kayu api…kelakar sangat.. de yang hangus, de yang tak masak dalam. Masak cekodok sampai baju kteorg pn bau asap! Sangat rindu keseronokkan masa tu... kteorg pn de diberi assignment iaitu kene amek sume signature sem 5 except senior Rizal coz dia duduk luar. Peh! Tak cm bangang lak kn.. kelam kabut semua org msa tu..haha takot x dapat amek sume sign.. at least r dpt sume sign MPP. Ok r tu.. dorang suruh buat tu pn sbb nk kteorg knl senior n bende tu pn da diluluskan oleh lectures. The next week, da start masuk kelas… peh! Tak cam bengong pulak kan kepala otak kteorg… coz sume cm tak ready lg nk belajar.. subject kt sini sumenye interesting.. Anatomy and Physiology [ANP ], Microbiology, Behavioral Science, n Nursing Science 1 & 2… lectures pn ok2… 17th July, 17 org budak bru daftar. Akhirnya kelas ak genap ada 74 org sumenye… ramai kan?? Tapi klu ikutkan, sem 5 lg ramai. Dorang de 100 org…

Kt sini ak dpt bestie, nme group kteorg ‘Double Trio’. Mesti pelik kn? Actually kteorg ni gabung 2 group. Ak rapat ngan Nabil n Te’a. Yang 1 lg group tu Pika, Zie n JJ. Camne kteorg ley gabung ye?? Oh, ni sume gara-gara Nabil n Te’a ajk aku g makan kt luar.. dorang suruh aku ajak Zie n Pika coz Nabil da ajak JJ. Since that kteorg sgt rapat. Klu mse rehat, kteorg share mknn even though mmg x ckup. Hahaha act kteorg ni sume sgt kuat mkn!g klas sama-sama, klu mkn, msti conquer 1 meja. Smpai budak2 klas pn jeles… ye la, kteorg akn share food even though bwk / bli sikit. Kalau outing pn msti sesama. Memang sangat seronok hangout ngan dorang coz sume perangai gila2.. esp Te’a.. kt sni ak knl sorg bdak ni.. dye ni VIP. Wow! Xsngka jmpe Korean lovers kt sini.. ak pggl dye VIP, JJ pggl dye GD [ dye sgt mnt kt GD ] n Te’a pggl dye Harun [coz dye duduk kt Tmn Dato’ Harun ] actually nme dye Adila.. Kt sini ak suruh dorang sume pggl ak Hafiz since ak da biasa dgn nme tu since sekolah rendah lg. even seniors n lectures pn pggl ak Hafiz. Lagipun de sorang budak ni nme dye Saidatul Affiza.. kteorg pggl dye kak Fiza.Ari tu g bazar n accidentally terserempak ngn Dauz. Hahaha pe lg, ak paw r dye.. ak paw sate je.. x saba nk kuar ngn Dauz lg. Dia je r bdak mtrx yg ak rapat kt cni.

Kenapa tetibe ak rse rndu kt Ajeez?? Wae?? Ish, I really hate this feeling. Stop it Fiz!! He already has someone that love him more than u do. U knew that right? Urgh!! Npe tetibe muka dia muncul pulak!! Kan ko da janji nk lepaskan dia?? Paling x suka klu chatting ngn Ayie, Daus, Fa, Nana, Oniey, Fara n Izt coz dorang slalu tnye, “ko ok x?” peh! Ak memang xboleh dengar ayt tu sbb confirm2 ak akn nanges… Npe la ak dpt nursing kt Melaka?? Da r 1st love Ajeez tu kt Melaka. Buatnye klu2 terserempak ngan Ajeez n 1st love dye, ak rse ak da terduduk da. Ari tu ak g dining coz nk online, ble ak buka myspace 1st love dye, ak nmpk ayt ni, “ILY periuk” automatic air mata ak jatuh. Ak xtau npe. Fiz, u’ve already promise yg u xkn nanges lg kn?? Xkn keluarkn air mata utk lelaki lg kn?? Then y are u crying now?? Do u still love him?? U’ve already know yg they love each other kn?? Then y ko tetibe potong jln?? U’ve seen in his n her myspace yg dorg tu ‘Mr & Mrs Periuk’ kn?? Sgt rse bersalah. Npe dlu Ajeez layan ak baik?? Klu dia layan biasa2 msti kita bertiga x jd cm ni kn?? Tears, plz r jgn kuar lg. Am tired with all the things that happened this year. Y does it hurt so bad?? U were never mine from the start. Still my love was not enough, though I’ve given u my all. Juz accept the fate that its not written in Heaven that he is yours. Be happy coz he was a part of your life, the 1st person that can make u feel secure whenever he’s with u. N the most important thing is that he reminds me of my daddy coz his attitude is quite similar with my dad. Urgh! Stop thinking bout him! But I really can’t. I can still remember the way he hug me, the way he’s holding my hand, the way he look at me… Shit!! Stop it ok??! He already has his ‘Mrs. Periuk’

Happy ble bce ‘ILY periuk’ coz I know she starts smiling again. I know both of them happy.. Ak pgg ayt ni dr dlu n Insyaallah smpai akhir hayat ak, ‘Am wiling to do anything to make people around me happy even though am the one who will suffer. N am willing to let go the person that I love to make someone else happy coz he/she deserve to be happy with their love one.’